Baby C is here!!!

Baby C was born 11 days before his due date on 12/6/10 at 9:20 pm weighing a healthy 6lb 8oz and 19 in long. I had an amazing drug free natural birth and the baby and I are doing beautifully. He is nursing like a pro!

Sorry it took so long to post this but It’s amazing how busy a newborn makes your life! We are loving every minute of it. Pics and full birth story to follow soon!


So remember that disappointment from last week? Well, it’s pretty amazing how quickly things can turn your mood around. At my doc appt on Tuesday I was 1 cm and 80-90% effaced! All that happened within the span of a week!

So it’s really good to know that I’m making some progress. My body works! Now, today, two days after my check I lost my mucous plug at work! For those who haven’t experienced that yet, yep it’s as gross as it sounds. But it was very obvious what it was and was accompanied by some blood so I guess that’s why they call it the bloody show.

I’ve been having fairly frequent contractions the last couple of days but nothing unbearable and not timeable yet. So i guess for now we wait. I suppose it could still be a week or more until actual labor begins, but i have a feeling i won’t make it to my due date.

As i type this its about 12:15 am on Friday so I guess that means I’m officially 38 weeks! I wish i could sleep but between the occasional contractions and excitement, I’m having a hard time. Hubby and dog are both passed out beside me though. No interruptions for them ūüôā

Gosh I’m so nervous and wondering when things will start picking up. Still need to finish packing my hospital bag. Guess i should get a move on!

Disappointment! 36w4d

Okay, I know I’m probably taking this all too seriously, but I just feel so disappointed after my doctor’s appointment today. At 37 weeks, 4 days, I’ve still made no progress. Not dilated, not effaced. At. All. Now, I know that really doesn’t mean anything, but I’ve been having tons of BH contractions – I thought for sure something must be going on.

Second, the baby is still posterior. Head down, but posterior. I’ve been doing everything I can to try and get this little one to to turn – pelvic rocks especially – but nothing working yet. With my goals of natural childbirth in mind, this posterior thing has me a little concerned.

And the most disappointing news of the day – I’m GBS positive. I’ll admit, I don’t know a whole lot about GBS itself except that it means I will need antibiotics every 4 hours once in labor to prevent the baby from getting infected. Plus, I’ll have to head to the hospital pretty quickly if my water breaks to get the meds. Which will start the time clock for interventions….interventions that I really want to avoid.

My recent Google search of GBS also indicates that with treatment with antibiotics, the chances of delivering a baby with GBS is 1 in 4,000. Those don’t seem like great odds to me. And GBS infections are pretty serious things for babies – I’m trying to not even go there.

There is a positive side. Most importantly, baby is healthy and looking great. I’m trying my best to focus on that and pray that, in the end, I wind up with a happy, healthy, beautiful baby boy.

Okay, wow. ¬†So I guess it’s been 3 months since I’ve posted! ¬† I’ve really missed the blog. ¬†But I’ve been so busy with all things baby it has totally fallen to the back burner. ¬†And, of course, the more time that passed, the more I put it off.

But here I am.  Now just about 36 weeks pregnant.  As of today, 29 days to go until my due date.  It feels close, but oh so far away.

So, in short, here’s what ya’ll have missed:

1. ¬†Nursery is DONE (well, mostly) ūüôā

2.  We had a really awesome 3d ultrasound done of the babe at around 29 weeks.

3.  My baby shower was Oct 30 and was an absolute blast -we got so many needed items

4. ¬†We’ve hired a doula to help us with our desire for a natural birth

5. ¬†I’ve been practicing¬†Hypnobabies since about week 32. ¬†¬†I’m not so sure about the hypnosis stuff, but at the very least, I’m hoping it will help me learn some relaxation techniques that I can use during labor.

All in all, I’ve been feeling pretty good. ¬†But I won’t lie, the last week or two things have started to get pretty uncomfortable the bigger I get!

I have a ton of pics I want to post later today, but here are a few for now!!

3D Ultrasound!

The mooooo chair!

32 weeks

Pics taken by our doula ūüôā

Onto happier things

I’m feeling a bit better these days.¬† Though not happy about the burden of planning the shower, I’m going to try and make the best of it and do what we can.¬† Many thanks to all my BBC and blogging friends for advice and words of wisdom.¬† It was a great comfort and help me get some things in perspective.

Now, onto more fun baby-centric things.¬† Like planning the nursery!!¬† We picked up our baby furniture this weekend which is currently camped out in the garage while we attempt to clean out the future baby room.¬† We’ve have two free bedrooms that have become collections for all things that didn’t fit in other rooms of the house.¬† So we now have to basically clean and consolidate the two to make room for the nursery.

My current project is trying to find some baby boy bedding that doesn’t completely repulse me.¬† Honestly, the choices out there for boy bedding leave a little to be desired.¬† That or they are $800 sets, which I refuse to succumb to.

So far, I’ve found a handful of things I really like.¬† I think I’ll do sort of a baby animal or jungle animal theme.

Jungle Friends Nursery Bedding

I have been belaboring over this bedding decision for a couple of weeks now, but I’m determined to place an order this week.¬† Otherwise, I’ll never make a decision.¬† I can’t wait to get started!

So my hubby talked to his mom last night about this whole shower business. ¬†And she is concerned about the hard feelings it may create if she plans the shower. ¬†So the hubs has decided that we will plan the shower ourselves. ¬†Now I know the rules of etiquette say that throwing a shower for yourself is tacky – and I tend to agree. ¬†So I just don’t know what to do. ¬†Besides, there is the extra expense and time involved in planning it ourselves.

Look, I know it’s just a silly party. ¬†And I know what REALLY matters. ¬†My baby and my husband. ¬†That’s what it’s all about. ¬†Part of me doesn’t give a shit about a party. ¬†But part of me is also sad and disappointed. ¬†And envious. ¬†I want to share this happy occasion with my family.

But maybe I’m being unrealistic in my expectations? ¬†Am I being irrational to think that my mom may want to do something nice for her daughter?

Before I get into the details, here’s a little background. ¬†I come from a seriously…and I mean seriously dysfunctional family (though I know we’re all a little dysfunctional -ha!). ¬†My parents divorced when I was 3 and spent my entire life putting me in the middle of their spats and thereby depriving me of many things because of their stubbornness and anger for each other.

My father is also bipolar, which can be quite a challenge to deal with.¬†My mom remarried when I was 10 and got divorced again a couple of years ago. ¬†She’s since moved to within 20 minutes of me (and works a mile from our house), but I still never see her.

Most of my extended family lives quite a distance away and we’re just not the close-knit type.

My hubby’s family, on the other hand, is a very large, mostly local, very close knit Italian family. ¬†They have taken me in as one of their own and I’m eternally grateful to them for showing me what a family is all about.

A couple of months back when I first found out I was pregnant, my mom (without being asked) offered up the news that she will not be throwing me a baby shower because it’s “not appropriate for the grandmother to throw a shower.” ¬†It was so early, I didn’t pay much attention to the comment. ¬†Oh and P.S. ¬†this is the same woman who refused to throw me a bridal shower (my MIL did instead), didn’t come early or stay late or help with the shower in any way. ¬†She showed up as any other guest.

My MIL knows how my family is and is perfectly willing to throw me a shower, but doesn’t understand why my mom refuses to do anything for me. ¬†So this past weekend at our little gender reveal party, she put mom on the spot and asked what her plans were for doing a shower.

So I talk to my mom last night and she proceeds to complain about MIL’s comments stating that she can’t afford to throw a shower, it’s not her job (she says one of my “friends” should throw me a shower) and she’s highly offended at MIL’s questioning. ¬†My mom even went so far as to tell me that this practice of mothers throwing a shower is an Italian thing and no one else in the world does this – but according to her ¬†I’m so wrapped up in this “Italian” life that I wouldn’t know the difference (P.S. my dad is Italian and so am I)

So after a lot of back and forth with her, it appears no progress has been made. ¬†She’s mad and she apparently doesn’t have any desire to do anything for her daughter or grandson-to-be. ¬†Period.

Now, I don’t need anything fancy. ¬†I don’t need gifts. ¬†This shower is not even for me. ¬†It is in celebration of a brand new life that me and my husband are so overjoyed about. ¬†It has taken us so long to get here and we want to share every moment with our families.

I spent hours crying my eyes out last night. ¬†I know I should be used to this by now, but it never seems to get any easier. ¬†I guess I also expect that someday, my family will surprise me and act like they give a shit. ¬†But I’m only left alone, disappointed and hurt.

And feeling guilty too.  I feel like I am forever burdening my in-laws.

Now I feel like I just don’t even want to invite my mom to a shower, should my MIL choose to throw one. ¬†Why should she be allowed to wander in, head held high as the proud grandma?

So something as simple as a baby shower that is supposed to be a happy occasion, has turned into something negative and a source of stress for me.

I can say that what I have learned through all of this is how NOT to treat my children.  I guess, thanks for that, Mom.